what to do?

spring break is near its end and all i know is that I've been enjoying every single day of my holiday. it was fun :)

   Sekarang ini lagi sedih, I don't know but the feelings smuanya kumpul jadi satu dan sekarang perasaannya lagi kacau bngt. I dunno, it feels so sudden. I hate. Hate. Hate this feeling. Kemarin ini pas mau ke LA-Vegas sebenarnya i'm not allowed to go there because my mom bilang i need to get my job requirements and everything done first, mesti settled everything up dulu, and honestly, bahkan online formnya blom di kirim ke ISP. Gimana mau schedule-nya coba?? when I know that everybody's going and im not allowed to, i believe if i told my mom about the case she would pity me and just let me go, but i just cant force myself to let her do it, cause i know the real thing is she doesnt want me to go there. Mami sama Papi dari dulu slalu turutin everything yang i want. even if they cant afford it they always try to make it work for me, supaya i could be happy.

   Since i was a kid i realised how different i was from my sister. she who's more of a manja-type-of-girl (but i envy her for it), berani say things she wants to say, say NO to things she doesnt want to do, and ASK for things she wants. I'm not like that. If anybody, even my parents, asks me: "Mau apa?" "Mau makan apa?" "Mau hadiah apa?", my answer is always "TERSERAH, gw apa aja gapapa kok :)" well actually, honestly, deep down i always mau something but i duno why dun have the courage to say it out loud!!

    So when my mom asks, "Kamu mau ikut mereka pergi?" i know if i answer, "Iya, mau" pasti she would let me go.. tapi i answered her "Gapapa kok. Ga usah" (pdhal sbnrnya mau bngt pergi). All i know is that i feel ga enak gitu, karena my mom always allow me to do this and that the way i want it, so this time, if she doesnt want me to go to LA, although i know if i ask she would let me, i want to follow her this time and just do what she told me to. As expected few hours after we skype, she bbm me and said: "Kamu pergi aja ke LA. gapapa" and i felt bad, although mostly happy, i felt childish and spoilt.

     Di LA dan Vegas i sleep sama maminya Andree, karena ada 2 ranjang Nadya sama Sienny and me sama maminya Andree. Tante super kalem and very tenang and hangat to talk to, very different from my mom yang bawel, ceria, mau foto terus hehe. Whenever i talk to tante pagi2, (because me sama tante bangunnya selalu pagi) i feel happy because although i could see how different she is from my mom, she treats me and sienny and nadya and everybody else super baik. barang-barang yang kita taruh berantakan pasti tante bersihin. when kita semua mau anter maminya Andree, on the day his mom's supposed to fly back, I cried. I felt kangen with my family, with Dado Mami Papi. I remembered those times, uda 2x tiap kali mau pisah sama mereka pasti nangis. I remember wktu dulu masih tinggal di 313, dan lulu and nathania (my very first roommate beside lulu) lagi ke greja, My mom and dad balik ke Indo and i dun anter them ke airport. Mereka dijemput di leasing office and i say goodbye to them in front of the leasing office. All i know is that i cry and cry alone, no one to hold to at that time. jujur, waktu itu sedih bngt bngt bngt karena di rumah sendiri dan i really have no idea who to tell about this. 

    Now i feel sad because I think i need to be strong gituu, ga boleh dikit-dikit nangis. Now im worried gara2 my business exam yang waktu itu. I felt like crying, dun have the courage to check my score cus examnya bener2 super susah. I know me being berani to take it aja udah deadly decision bngt,,i dun want to disappoint my mom again. my math 1a uda dapet C gara2 MOSH. dan itu bener2 make me down and although my mom said that its okay, i believe she expect a higher result because she knows, and definitely sure of my capabilities that i can get A on his class, but she knows that i was lazy, and TAKUT because i heard dy kelasnya susah bngt, i become kleper2 gitu jadi males belajar. I know my mom has a really high expectation on me, i know she could see deep inside me. I know that she knows that im a kind of person yang slalu mau sukses di bnyk bidang. She knows that if i want something, i could easily dapetin itu dengan cara berusaha. she knows i can do whatever i want with my own ways, and she believed me. 

    Sedih bngt rasanya sekarang, confused. I want to get a bookstore job so that my mom bisa bangga her own daughter uda bisa cari duit loh,, and i want to get good scores, i dun even have the courage to buka my score, i dunt want another C. kalo dapet C gimana.. kalo A atau B amin. sedih dan takut bngt cuman bisa nangis doang. what to do what to do little diary. i dun tell this to any single person but only to you. tapi mesti kuatt vanii ga boleh rely on orang terus. u got to use your own strength:) kuat kuat kuat <3

tiring day :)

oh no! hari ini super cape i play basketball with nadya sienny teguh frans ! tadi play non-stop for 6 hours! diajarin lay-up kiri, trus trik muter2 gituu and it was so hard. nge-shoot 60-70x under-ring bahkan ga bisa masuk 10 deh, tapi soalnya itu plus minus sih :( but i want supaya bisa.. semangat vani
but i do have fun!
tadi kedatangan teman-teman dari SF priska, mega and marcia and mereka lucu-lucu gitu, tapi pada senior-senior hehe.
now my feet kanan kiri berdarah, karna tadi kegesek' gitu, and my left foot kena ankle :( as always im always ceroboh. super cape day, tapi besok mau latian lagi nih, cuman i hope uda bisa lari lagi deh, soalnya ternyata anklenya cukup parah :(..
cant wait sampe bsa ketemu ci vanessa ci angel lagii! :) super kangen mereka dehh.
now my mind cuman concern supaya bisa better in basketball karna kangen bngt deh main basket kyak dulu :) masih bnyk yg i have to learn, dun give up!


When the world says, "Give up,"
I remember my mom's words, "Try it one more time."

Treat everyone with politeness, even those who are rude to you - not because they are nice, but because you are. 

♥ HELLO SPRING BREAK! ♥

♥ hello kamus tempat ku bercerita <3
finally! its spring break!
today is super tiring day because i only slept for 2++ hours today, study study accounting and business but now its over! spring break is around the corner wuhuuu.


last week ci angel and company [atang and aboi] datang main-main ke san jose! senang bangat bisa ngeliat mereka lagi, kali ini depan mereka i don't cry of course, tapi malemnya ada dikit sih :( huhu sekarang udah kangen mereka lagi loh. lulu sekarang di seattle, happy for her finally bisa bertemu saudaranya. pray for nico deh biar bisa slsain maths 49B nya. hehe. trus welcome back ci vanessa sama ci mel dari bahamas! tempatnyaa pasti baguss deh yahh, jadi pengen pergi. :) hehe. happy buat andree yang maminya kesini dehh :) tadi jam 7an gitu andree jemput maminya di airpot. i miss my mom too, hehe.. hope he has a good time with his mom ! PERMIAS is around the corner, serem bngt bakal gimana yah ntar, deg deg deg deg ann bngt! tapi smoga everything will be alright, amin deh =) 


bersyukurr pada Tuhan Yesus for every single thing yang Dia kasih, did and gave to me banget. Rasanya skrg pengen tulus tulus sayangg sama Tuhan . kemarin ini i make my very first es buah trus abis loh sama smua, tapi my second es buah gagal gitu jellynyaa :( konyakunya warna ungu trus asem and lembek2 gitu, ya gagal yah.


cape bngt hari ini, but i feel happy =)
goodnite everybody 

omg ini my first first cupcakes:)

bikinnya susahh bngt! cus were supposed to make the adonan using electric mixer and me and nydia ga punya, so we use tangan instead! hehe..
didi yg ukur2 and put in all the adonan and necessary bahan, and me yang aduk2..
and the red velvet cupcake YUMMY jadi 
susah bngt bikinnya, tapi worth it! senang bngt kalo the ones i give pada suka
it was very hard to make, but in the end turn out good. but i do think that its kinda too sweet .. but overall im very happy with the results. happy didii :) happy vanii!

happy white day to all my dearests !

Thank God it’s Friday, everybody wants to party.
Why don’t we go funky? Dancing with you all night, yeah.
Looking at them shorties, maybe they wanna? party with me.
Y’all know what it’s all about. Y’all know what it’s all about.

It’s Friday night, when the feeling is all right.
We ain’t coming to sit tight, we came to get high, right?
Y’all know what it’s all about.
When the DJ spins, and the chicks come out.
Like my friend Craig D said: ”Friday, Payday” it’s time to party.
P.A. to the R, T to the Y. Baby girl you don’t need to ask me why.

Coz it’s going down like The Executioner.
Scratching them things, flapping them wings.
We’re the evolutioner. That’s our name.
Coz when we we come to this game, it ain’t gonna be the same.
Tell your friends and family about this band.
Hopefully we be rocking the showbiz, and if y’all like this flow, let me know if it’s loco.
Everybody now let’s go!

Thank God it’s Friday, everybody wants to party.
Why don’t we go funky? Dancing with you all night,yeah.
Looking at them shorties, maybe they wanna party with me.
Y’all know what it’s all about. Y’all know what it’s all about.

Sexy lady, if? you want me, you got to show me that you’re the only one for me.
You got to show me (3x)
You got to show me love.

Get hype. Dance all night.
Everybody on the floor, dance till the sunlight.
And bring a friend, stop arguing.
Start conquering and just dance.
Just dance like it’s your last chance.
Party like it’s your last day.

(Thank God it’s Friday)
Boys, don’t waste your day.
(Everybody wants to party)
Come and join the party.
(Dancing all? night, yeah)
Girls, don’t waste your time.
(Thank God it’s Friday)

tiba" pengen denger lagu ini :D

pilekkk -.-

helloo diary! ahh sudah lama i dont fill in any post yahh cus i just moved in to my new apartment so its been a busy week nihh):
okay so basically its good-bye 313, and hello 104 (:
but everythings been fine! im having a really-really-really bad flu so last night i slept at around 10++ and woke up at 9 this morning. parah bngt flu-nya, padahal pas di indo gag pernah sakit.. =.='
rumah baru nya super hangat loh, soalnya di lantai 1 sih. hehe.
this week i cooked twice!

my very very first cooking is kangkung terasi sama telor dadar kurang garam, yang makan cuman andree, tapi katanya lumayan :D, senanggg ada yang mau makan

my second cooking is spaghetti bolognaise jadi-jadian, cuman pake jamur,daging,sosis,bawang putih,bawang bombay sama tomato sauce, tapi kata celine,briann sama didi enakk =) senanggg!

today my business class is cancelled, =) so im gonna clean up my house and take a good good rest, cuz the flu makin parahh T.T i also habis viewed ci vanessa snow white's blog yg isinya food yang cici bikin and smuanya looked so good and yummy, dibandingin sama yang nih 2 foto makanan di atas, sorry yah yang uda makan soalnya bedanya super jauh :p hehehe. 


btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILSON!
sebenarnya kemarin yah wil yah but i just opened my blog nih, so once again, happy birthday mateo si kapten no.8 :)

16 years of living, almost 17 ;)
mau terima kasih sama semuanya, yang udah kenal dari kecil sampe yang baru kenal sekarang, yang dari dulu ada, sekarang dan selamanya juga bakal ada. to my dearest family, my dearest friends and everybody who's been treating me super baik dan sayang sama gw =) 
sayang kalian semua ♥

lovely mom, dad and little sister. love is the word ♥

my dearest family =) ♥

with my gorgeous aunt ♥

♥ beatrix

meme and mimi , xoxo bffs ♥

dearest icel and bekoi, im missing you guys so badly ♥

nicholas and nelson, thank you for everything ♥

tora and tommy, fuku, blur, cai, lulu:) especially buat Tora (yang dicekek mimi) dan Tommy (yang pake kemeja biru sama jas) hitam. Tora dengan nasehatnya dan Tommy si paling sabar yang selalu nge-jaga dan perhatian. Lulu yang sekarang ada di samping gw ♥

mr.Budi, snah, andy keren, dotty, deby, jiujiu.. awww sama widut juga widutt!! ♥

GENESIS! thanks for the inspiration, esp. rere, bern, bas, trid, nadya, hutz, ben, jess, tash, ci dessy, ko julius, kak ahong and ko jimmy! ♥

koko , makasih buat ajarannya dan everything, smoga jadi good daddy ya! siennoi, lala, ci angela, ci caroline, ci lele, ci susan, ci josie, ci christy, ci tep, ci megan, ci irene :) kangen sumpah! ♥

basket! dado, kimm sama nini, ayo ayo ayo maju terus kalian bisa! ♥

kangen giooo!! =) miss miss miss ♥

viani sayangs! alvinbo, ce calista cantik, ko calvin sama tian si gendutt ♥

my dear talisha quinta ♥

malaikat dunia yang jauh di mata dekat di hati, ci angel ♥

source of strength, terima kasih cici sayang, ci vanessa ♥

andree si tupai pipi bulet yang paling baik hati, atang aris leonardo dan ko richard yang super iseng tapi perhatian ♥

drewy! for everything you taught me ♥

nydi, nadya sama brian =) kalian yang selalu ngehibur kalo lagi sedih♥

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

loves, vani 

happy birthday dear mom!

03.03.2010 
happy birthday dear Mami yang ke 48 tahun!
jujur aja sih mami umur segini tampangnya ga kayak umurnya, keliatannya jauh lebih muda =)
mami happy birthday smoga hari-hari mami makin diberkati, pekerjaannya lancar (amin), kesehatannya juga baik, makin sabar hadapin aku sama si dado. kado ultahnya ntar aku kasih yah pas mami kesini,


Happy Birthday Mami
Happy Birthday Mami
Happy Birthday,
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday Mami


I love you, Mom!

sama si papi lagi jalan-jalan

lagi makan yah kita

Happy Birthday mamm.

it's a charmed life

hello diary, long time no see huh?
hehehe its been a happy weekends i guessed, a lovely happy birthday to dear louisa halim and hutomo prayogo! happy birthday lulu and ubeng.
today is uber fun! but very tiring too.
i go play-play basketball with everybody and i guessed im having lots of fun there.
miss playing basketball with koko, cici", lala, sienny, my sis, kimoet sama nini!
ikea was funny too, we shop a lot!
when i reached home i need to clean up my house, lots of stuff , lots of work.
tomorrow is sunday =) happy sunday to all
gudnites! don't let the bugs bite

hello dearests♥

                  hello and good evening everybody, and hello and sunny afternoon greetings for those in jakarta. i'm currently doing my english homework and about to take my extra credit quizzes on accounting, but feeling extremely bored so i decided to write a new post in my blog =)
now i want to share what a charmed life i'm currently living right now, because the moment i think about the past and stepped back to my childhood days, nothing lasts but good memories that would always make me smile. to many people i want to give thanks because without them, a day won't be a day.
                  There are not many problems in my life, but I know God planned everything and He guided every step that i will take. I learned a lot of things from many people, and even a simple sentence from our friends and relatives can change our lives. These sayings motivate me until today.

Mami: "Kamu mesti berani ngomong enggak, berani ngomong apa yang kamu mau, biar ga di pandang rendah sama orang lain."
Papi: "Hidup itu jangan mau dibodohin orang, jangan mau di manfaatin orang lain, kamu ga boleh terlalu baik sama orang karna ga semua orang itu sebaik yang kamu kira."
Anti Lina: "Kamu mesti selalu pikirin masa depan kamu yah van, ga boleh ga peduli."
Popo: "Jadi cewe mesti bisa masak ya, Ni. BELAJAR, ntar lama-lama bisa kok."
Bas: "Van lo mesti nyanyi dengan hati, gak cuman nyanyi karna lo suka aja, karena kita bernyanyi bukan biar orang denger suara kita, tapi biar Tuhan Yesus liat seberapa kangennya kita dan inginnya kita menyembah Dia, soalnya lo punya talenta."
Mimi: "Vani you are the kindest but also the stupidest person I know in my life."
Bekoi: "Pum lu tuh bego! Makanya sering ga di respect sm orang! Gw sm Icel cape ngmg sama lu soalnya lu tuh keras kepala, ga mau dengerin gw sm Icel padahal buat kebaikan lu juga kan? Sometimes all you need to think about is just yourself, babe."
Ci Vanessa: The key to be blessed is being thankful =)
Ci Angel: "Van kamu tuh mesti belajar banyak tentang hidup, karna di luar sana, kita ga tau bakal hadapin apa aja. Kita sebagai cewe mesti kuat."
Andree: "Be kind to people because you are kind, don't be kind to people in order for them to treat you back in kindness."
Bu Sar: "Ci kalo skolah di luar sana mesti baik-baik yah, selalu inget Papi Mami sama Jovita."


              Although my life is not as perfect as others', or even close to, i've met many wonderful and kind-hearted people, and each of them represents different strengths in my heart. i don't really care how many years to take or how many months for me and these people's love and friendship to bond, but one thing i know, whatever happens, they've created a mark in my heart that i will cherish and treasure throughout my life. there are beginnings and endings, hi-hello-how-are-yous and goodbyes, but you'll never know whats gonna happened right? for every mistake a friend made, forgive and let go. every person deserves a second chance.

 dream, believe, and do it ♥

Family is the greatest gift.
Mami, Papi and Jovita,

         Mi, Pi, Sorry ya selama ini aku ga bisa jadi anak yang mami sama papi banggain setiap saat, aku yang lebih sering ngecewain dan bahkan ga pernah ngmg I Love You ke mami papi. Tapi sebenarnya aku sayang banget sama kalian. Studying and living apart here in the US i realised what a humongous role mami sama papi have in my life. In time i realized without you guys I'm not who I am today. Aku ga bisa ngomong langsung sama kalian, ga tau kenapa aku malu, aku cuman bisa ngmg five words, 5 simple words yang tiap kali kalo aku inget cuman bisa keluarin air mata dan menangis - Aku kangen mami sama papi. Aku pengen pulang dan ketemu kalian, tapi tiap kali pulang aku pasti nangis pas mau balik kesini lagi.

         Every single day passed, dan tiap hari aku makin sadar kalo keberadaan mami sama papi tuh penting banget. Mi, aku ga pernah cerita apa-apa ke mami, apapun masalah aku selalu aku pendem, tapi baru sekarang i realised that even if i never said anything you always know how I feel, selalu sadar kalo aku lagi kenapa-kenapa. Mami juga selalu maafin semua kesalahanku, ga pernah sekalipun biarinin bad things to even get near me. Mami yang selalu mau ajarin aku tentang pelajaran hidup tapi aku selalu ga mau dengerin. Iya, aku sebenarnya sayang bngt sama mami, tapi ga pernah pernah berani ngomong langsung. Kalo Papi, Papi tuh pribadi yang lucu dan super kocak. Papi orang pertama yang buka mata aku kalo ga semua laki-laki merokok itu jahat. Papi sumber kekuatanku setelah Yesus =) Papi juga selalu kasih barang apapun yang aku mau. Aku ga tau kenapa now suddenly I realized Papi sama Mami udah bener-bener baik banget sama aku. Aku ga pernah tau rasanya jdi anak papi mami yang lain, tapi aku tau aku gadis beruntung yang bisa punya parents kayak kalian. Papi yang selalu ngmg I Love You di akhir telpon, dan aku yang ga pernah sekalipun ngmg I Love You balik ke papi. Papi yang selalu manggil aku sama dede, yayangku. Papi yang selalu kasih uang jajan tanpa aku minta. Papi yang selalu beliin makanan kalo pulang kerja. Papi yang selalu beliin barang apapun yang aku mau, tapi ga pernah mau kalo mau aku beliin sesuatu. Papi yang bekerja tiap hari 2 jam pulang pergi, bahkan weekends. Papi yang nangis tiap hari pas 2 minggu di Amerika sebelum pulang ke Jakarta. Papi yang selalu pijitin dado dan garukin aku sebelum tidur. Papi yang selalu tanya mau makan dimana, dan ga pernah pilih tempat makan sendiri. 

          Buat Dado, do lu tuh ade gw yang super cuek, kerjanya di rumah terus main komputer lagi. Do lu tuh satu2nya saudara kandung gw. sebenarnya i juga super miss you. Dado lu yang selalu cium2 pipi gw dan bilang kalo gw tuh lucu. Lu yang beliin gw hadiah ulang taun super cute dan satu-satunya di dunia tapi gw ngaku ke lunya gw ga suka. Lu yang selalu malem2 pindah ke ranjang gw gara-gara takut tidur sendiri. Lu yang selalu mau ikut dan kembaran sama gw tapi gw ga pernah mau. Sorry yah, gw ga bisa jadi sosok cici yang bisa lu panutin, yang bisa jadi seorang sahabat juga. Aku kangenn sama kamu do.

         Buat mami, papi sama dado, sebenarnya yang selalu bikin aku nangis sekarang tuh aku bayangin mobil kita di rumah isinya uda bukan 4 orang lagi, sekarang tiap kali kalian kemana-mana, isi mobilnya cuman 3 orang. Aku kangen ketawa-ketawa dan jalan-jalan sama kalian. Mami, papi sama dado, terima kasih atas cinta dan kasih sayang kalian ke aku yah, making me the luckiest girl i never imagined i would be. 

Mami, Papi sama Jovita, I love you.

"I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me.  They have clung to me all my life." 

"Any man can be a father.  It takes someone special to be a dad."

"Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of.  You know whatever you do, they'll still be there."

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
Jean Jacques Rousseau

Today I learned that every person has its limits, because being patient has its border line too. The fact that I lost my blackberry was shocking but people just don't seem to get it that i was really disappointed of  it. I know that although my friends often make fun of me, they simply do it just for fun and don't mean to insult or make me mad. However, today, I think they've gone beyond limits, that this time it has gone too far. I know i've never been angry to him, but this time, he just simply can't understand me, shud bff do that to one another? today i finally has the gult to say what i want to say, that i was disappointed of this and that, dislike things done this way and that. i finally was able to express my feelings. although now i know that he would think that "how come she became so sensitive?" and etc. I've been so patient, and never ever get mad when somebody makes fun of me or anything.

I hope Nick knows and realizes that I was able to say that because I want to be honest, cause throughout these years i've never once had the courage to say this.

Nick's been a friend and a guardian

Nick's been by my side since such a long time, whenever there's problem he's always around, whenever i need him he always tried to be there. if i need help Nick's there, and if the whole world hates me he said he would be by my side, and in fact he always did =)

Nick, I hope you can understand how i feel yah.

best friends forever! :)
hugs.

in the process

my next post lagi dibikin yahh =( sorry ga bikin2

happy holidays!

happy happy holidays everybody!

can't wait can't wait just one more day to LA! :D
dearest ci vanessa matio,
semangat sayang!
aku gak jago ngmg nih, yang paling penting lah yah aku ga mau cici sedih, cause cici jg slalu temenin aku kalo aku sedih :)
kan i told u ci, everything happens for a reason, and God knows cici tuh uda belajar sungguh-sungguh, jadi apapun hasilnya its okay ciciii! semangat , buang rasa sedih dan kecewa-mu. mami cici pasti bangga sama cici for who you are, aku aja yah bangga punya cici yang best friend and jg sister yang ga bisa digantiin sama orang lain. sayang kamu snow white! aku ga bisa se-sweet cici ke aku, tapi pokoknya aku ga mau cici sedih. mau ngehibur tapi malu-malu gitu akunya. kalo cici baca ini, semoga cici bisa senyum ya sambil bacanya.


can't wait to see you!
i will always be here for you if you need me yah
besok kita senang-senang! =)

Meyi Dwicahyani Gunadi and Michael Angputra in my life

meme and mimi
kita kenal uda dari kelas 4 SD yah, cuman mulai deket pas SMP 2, gara-gara we sang toxic - Britney Spears, on stage, humiliating ourselves on public, depan sluruh skolah lagi! meme sama mimi, thanks for everything, soalnya kalian selalu percaya dan selalu dukung dan ga pernah sekalipun ga ada when i need kalian. sad yah, kita skrg temenan jauh banget, dulu jakarta barat semua, tiap hari pasti ketemu, but now its like united states - australia - singapore gitu :(


buat meme, a friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be. me kalo ga ada kamu aku ga mungkin kayak aku yang sekarang. me selalu ada, bahkan meme kalo d singapur aja pasti mau dengerin ocehan aku bulak-balik yah, trus selalu dukung aku non-stop tanpa pamrih :) ih sayang bngt sama kamu! waktu ada masalah dulu kamu ga pernah tanya apa-apa langsung dukung aku, thanks ya me kamu percaya sama  aku, thanks kamu bisa ngerti aku luar dalemnya gimana, thanks kamu ngertiin aku yang ga bisa ngmg hal-hal yang aku mauin. gila me aku ngmg gini malu bngt loh, tapi i'm writing this on my blog so that others know how valuable and important you are in my life, me! hehe pasti ntar abis kamu baca ini bilang aku norak deh. hehe.


buat mimi, helo sexy! Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty.
cocok bngt ya mi buat lu? hehe..

nih kalo buat mimi mah banyakkk yang bisa di-omongin! mi lo tuh yang paling ngerti gw rasanya. mi lo ajarin gw banyak hal berharga, you taught me how to fight, how to be independent, how to be a person others respect, how to be sticking to your own values and most importantly, how to love myself as it is and just be "me" all the time. if it wasn't you who opened my eyes i may not be as brave as i am today loh. all you said was harsh things, but i know how much you care and love me because best friends say the truth :)) hohoho mimi lu tuh yang paling kurang ajar kalo hina gw, udah ga ketolong ya hinaannya! dasar . hehe.


meme sama mimi, makasih yah :)
♥ 

hello world ♥

happy days, happy weekend, happy me =)

its been a blast, every single day that I've been through.

Thanks Almighty God, for everything, I love You ♥
hari-hari ini hari-hari super bahagia:

days where my mom's pain and sickness is getting better
days where I'm becoming more and more diligent in studying
days where I've gained self-confidence
days where I learned to say "NO."
days where I super kangen ci Angel, ci Vanessa sama Aris
days where spending time with Andree, ko Richard and Lulu is uber-fun!
days where Nadya, Nydia and Brian make a trip to SF jadi from SF with laugh
days where I learned that clubbing is super ga enak
days where I realized that I super missing my little sister

days with ♥ from everybody.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today" - James Dean

another blessed day

"A smile is the light in your window that tells others that there is a caring, sharing person inside."

Thank you ci nessa for every single encouragement and prayer, for every support and cheer, that made me this strong and happily believed that everything's gonna be just fine.

Ini post di bikin right after Andree showed me ci Nessa's blog. shock bangett . . waktu andree kasih liat ga nangis, tapi pas buka blog nya lagi jadi nangis beneran, cengeng yaa? tapi memang terharu bngt. i don't know the right words to describe it. it was beyond beautiful.

jadi sedih bngt rasanya. I dunno what to say but gladly bersyukur ada orang kayak cici yang sayang sama aku =).. ci makasih yah bisa ngertiin aku, thank you for being there even when you're not around.

❤ "the highest wisdom is loving kindness."

sekarang percaya, kalo semuanya di tangan Tuhan, and pasti bakal baik-baik saja cause He won't let anything bad to happen.

can't wait to see you cii..

miss you miss you miss you

6 days till I see you yahh!

Thank you ci snow white! 

loves Vanessa

Thank you juga buat Andree, si tupai pipi bulet 

=) Iya dree, keep praying and He'll lead us the way yah.

                                     ❤sayang kalian❤

tiba-tiba kangen

ROLIPOLEON
super kangen kaliann!

icel, bekoi dan cai

apa kabarnyaa yahh

tiap kali inget masa-masa SMA dulu rasanya pengen banget balik k jaman itu. college skrg rasanya beda bngt sm skolah wktu masa2 SMP dan SMA. aww super kangen kalian!

cant wait till july

im coming home INDONESIA

vaniberry. all i got to say

:) hello smuanya, gila kekna i never really updated this piece of blog. haha.

well hello. not really much to say although lots have been going through.

its first of february, another new month, another new beginning perhaps.

well okay first of all i guess i have to introduce myself.

Vania Darwin, well thats it. that vivid and typical indonesian style, except the fact that my last name is actually my dad's and ONLY name -meaning that he doesnt even has any last name. People call me Vani. and so thats why i named this blog vaniberry something-something. To be honest I always treasured my self as a girl with limited capabilities, ordinary look and selfish characteristics. i love baby pink, soft purple, light yellow, dark chocolate, and all other beautiful colours a rainbow owns. colours lighten up my day :)

i'm sixteen years old, still trying to rejuvenate myself and finding the right track to follow. I love Jesus Christ, King above all kings. a girl who loves to SING, play some MUSIC. a bit of BASS. try to improve in GUITAR. PIANO.

i love having fun

BASKETBALL

FUTSAL

i like BILLIARD and BOWLING too

i love playing games :)

and everything else

loves doing lots and lots of things. i wanna try and play everything :)

MATHEMATICS

CHEMISTRY

PHYSICS

studying bores, but interesting.

FAMILY

mami . papi. dado

without them i will not be who i am today

love is the word.

FRIENDS

meme . mimi .

bekoi . icel . tora .

thanks to you guys .

thanks for being around

thanks for believing me

nick, nel, tommy, hans, djap, cai, suey, blur, lulu, milan. widut, talisha, nadya, melvern.

thanks for completing my days, making them more perfect than ever

sienny and lala .

together selalu :)) kita basket!

alvin sama viani .

childhood friendship does last forever.

bas. rez. astrid. ben. bern. isabel. adel. josh. huts. steph. ndru. cindy. aron. clara. nadya.

worshipping God to the fullest fulfill my weekends

ci angel dan ci vanessa

meskipun baru kenal kalian, thanks kalian slalu ada disana when i need you both. :)

thanks for trusting me cici2. terima kasih karena kalian sadar of what i feel.

love . belle and snow white . love

andree, ko richard, aris and andrew.

we've been friends only since mid-august, but terima kasih ko and dreee, for taking care of me, treating me in kindness. terima kasih buat perhatian dan pelajaran yg kalian kasih. sayang kalian banget :)

atang and drewy. atang and drewy. atang and drewy.

never met anyone else yg sebaik kalian. too hard to describe it in words.

LOVE and LIVE your LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

vaniberry

:))

everything in life can be beautiful or sometimes ugly

when you realize that its time to take one step forward

then do it

and leave everything that stops you from being who you are,

what you always wanted,

move ahead and face upfront

be a lady of independence :)